"Living at risk is jumping off the cliff
and building your wings on the way down."

- Ray Bradbury

Monday, April 07, 2003

You are Humanity and Human Kindness! You do
everything for yourself, but sometimes manage
to cloak it in a shroud of self-righteousness.
The only reason people still like you is
because they aren't cynical enough to know the
real you.

here's another of emode's quizzes..

The Wedding Date Predictor
YOU ARE CLOSE to finding "the one!" We have carefully calculated your responses according to our scientific formula and harmonized the results to the Venutian lunar calendar. But don't get your hopes up to hear those wedding bells soon, because your bridesmaid days aren't over just yet.

YOU WILL BE MARRIED BY: Saturday, August 12, 2006
Social Factors
On the social front, you are serious marriage material. As you read this, forces beyond your control are aligning to put you on the altar with Mr. Right. It's you, girl. Your number is up, and someone is just waiting to pop the question. If there are no contenders in your immediate vicinity, then maybe you should just hop the next flight to Vegas and see who turns up. Hey, would we steer you wrong?
Emotional Factors
Emotionally, you seem to show some inner hesitations about marriage. C'mon, you didn't think you could hide it from us, did you? You've got what it takes to make the plunge, but you seem to want a little more time. There is something more than the "jitters" at work here. Maybe you just want to enjoy your single status for a little longer. Go for it, Honey, and tell them Emode says it's OK.
Sexual Factors
You have very few sexually motivated reasons for avoiding marriage. Of course, the carefree single life can pose a strong attraction, but you probably prefer the thought of devoting yourself to one person. It's true that there are a lot of unsolved mysteries out there, but once you've found the right person, it's time to close shop. Congratulations on having the strength and security to know what's right for you.

(i find it so hard to believe dat it actually thinks i'm going to get married at age 20.. gross.)

hoho.. went sun-tanning with my sis just now. not as gd as going to the beach, but still, it's better than nth lah.. we kept laughing at ourselves cos the carpark is open space at the 4th storey and although we kept to a corner, part of a blk still cld c us sitting in the sun. hahaz.. "haha.. i think pple c us, will think we'r crazy" -sis

anw, luking at winnie-the-pooh and the nihilist bear below, i just remembered dat my shifu got the same results fer both the quizzes. hahaz.. speaking of my shifu, i cant help but say dis again: he’s such a nice person. if it werent fer him, i cld’v still b troubled over whether or not to take arts, much less decide wad choices to put down fer the schs. really glad dat i haf such a shifu cos i think there’r some qualities in him dat r worth luking up to (seriously, i seldom find sum1 whom i can say i really admire, so there must b sth special abt him dat ya all cant c lor. open ur eyes!).

i dun care wad other pple think of him lah, cos i think most pple just write him off as some irritating guy w/o really making an effort to noe him better. Bottomline: pak rox! (if u happen to read dis and disagree with me, u’r probably guilty of just following the crowd. pple dun lyk him, den u just anyhow follow blindly lyk an ox lead by the nose. shame on u.)

u noe, i STILL haf not read act 1 of Measure for Measure.. haiz.. sian diao.. nvmz.. i will, i must, i shall, read it later. (duh. if not where got face to go sch tmr?) bleahs... i hope i get down to reading at least part of it lah.. haiz

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

too bad i'm not tigger.. bleahs

Nihilist Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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not exactly true.. i lyk fluffy kitties~~ *grinz*

hm.. luk at the time~ haha.. spent so much time trying out all the nicer quizzes.. [@ http://www.emode.com/tests/]
here's 2 dat i'v done:

What Are You Looking for in a Relationship?
sharon, you're looking for a Soul Mate

Who needs a fling when what you want is the whole fairytale: long walks on the beach, up-all-night conversations, and watching sunrises/sunsets in each other's arms. You're probably a picky dater who doesn't connect with just anyone. Sure a strong intellectual streak, loyalty, and a great sense of humor are terrific selling points.

The Confidence Test
sharon, your confidence level is high

As a result, you may tend view yourself as a wonderful, lucky, or energized person. However you probably also have your days when you don't feel so hot. After all, you're only human. Because of your usual high level of self-acceptance and belief in yourself, you're generally open and accepting of others. People who come in contact with you likely appreciate this generous nature and may seek out your company.

Your athletic ability seems to be the trait that you most value in yourself of the five main traits that affect confidence. You also seem to appreciate this characteristic in others.

haha.. i just realised dat i'm v bo liao. i enjoy doing quizzes, esp. personality quizzes :)

wasnt supposed to b home 2nite but my sis wanna come back, so.. here i am again. hahaz.. think i'm kinda hooked up on dis blog thingy. keep wanting to update even though it's filled with only spastic crap, which, im sure, is entertaining enough to make some pple (u noe who u r. no nid me to list ur names out rite? hahaz) returning to read newer posts :) hahaha

anw, i'v been thinking alot abt some things. i find it q irritating dat pple lyk pple. ya noe wad i mean? (i mean, guys lyking girls and vice versa lah, toot) it's lyk.. wad the hell is it with pple? sigh.. mayb im not human. dat's q sad, but sumhow, i think i'd rather not b human. -shrugs- and rite, y is it dat pple arent lyk balls which can b passed arnd from 1 person to another? i mean, sumtimes a certain person, A, doesnt lyk/dun deserve/isnt compatible with another person, B, wun it b better fer every1 if A can b passed to another, C, who lyks/derserves/more compatible with A? confused? den guess wad. u haf a slow brain. bleahs

toked to yq on the bus ride home and she told me stuffs abt jonathan and her. she's still not over him and admitted dat she's v dependent on him. sad case. i dun c wad's there to lyk abt dat guy. he doesnt even care enough fer her. he's probably just keeping yq arnd to fill the empty space in his most-lykly-pathetic love life, while waiting fer sum1 better than yq to song shang men. jian nan ren. but den again, yq's q a ben nu ren. haiz.. sad case. told her i dun think jon's gd enough fer her but she said dat even if dis da shuai ge lyks her, she thinks she'll still lyk jon more. bah..

everytime i do some introspection, i seem to get to noe myself better and better (which probably shd b the way when one reflects on himself/herself). seriously, i think i noe myself so well it's q scary. i think i'm q zi yi wei shi, abit judgemental, stubborn, selfish, pessimistic, individualistic, heck care abt most stuffs, not v emotional, practical, easily irritated and pissed (but seldom get really angry though i let anger lead me when my blood boils), blah.. y am i putting myself down lidat? hahaz.. i'm not lah. at least, i dun think i'm putting myself down. just stating facts.. :)

i think lotza pple think i'm quiet just cos i dun lyk tok talk, but the truth is, i think pple in dis world tok too much. they tok more than they listen, which is q senseless. God gaf us 2 ears to listen, but only 1 mouth to tok. so y is it dat pple tok so much? God noes. i dun. i really think dat life is actually q sad. "i think i'll just curl up and die."

Sunday, April 06, 2003

in case u'v not noticed, i'v added some links of my frens (trying to find more pple to link up) and dis Shout Out thingy (it's in blue) after every post fer ya all to gimme ur comments yah? anw, i dunno if it's my com (cos it sux to the max), but if u start getting distored images after posting ur comments (i think the prob is with the smileys, but the smileys r damn ke ai, so whether u wanna use them or not, up to u lah), just refresh the page and let me noe okays? i'll do sth abt it when i'm back home again. gotta rush over to my grandma's hse fer dinner. I'M SO DAMN SCREWED. mum's gonna kill me cos i'm going to reach there q late.. boringx.....

your asshole.


What swear word are you?
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Psycho. You are overwhelmed by anger. You may even
hate the world and everything in it and you
believe revenge is the way of the world. An eye
for an eye.


How Emotional Are You?
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heys! see?? dun kajiao me man.. betta dui wo hao, or i'll bao chou! hrmphz

yay~ i'm back in action (BIA)! hahahahaz.. going crazy.. oh wells.. slpt lyk a pig fer 4hrs after eating lunch. hahaz.. cool rite? lols.. later hafta go back to my aunt's hse again.. kinda sian, but sadly... do i haf a choice? - NO i dun. BAHHH... anw, can sum1 send me the msn plus?!! i wanna hear the evil laugh.. MuaHahAhAHahaHAa~~*

sch's starting on wedz (or issit thurs?).. say fast, not fast. say slow, not slow.. but not lyk i care. i just wanna go back to sch!! bleahs.. (since when did i turned into such a sch-lurving person? hehx) lalalaz~ o yah. ->ry, i noe u'll read dis (cos u'r my 1 and only zhong shi du zhe. b proud abt dat hors? hahz..), so just wanna remind u: send me mp3s!!! oh. go sun-tan with me again b4 sch reopens leh.. i provide u with yu san den u wun become "or lang" lorz.. kk? hahaz<-

sad case: i havent done my hw - read Measure for Measure Act 1.. printed it out le.. 14pgs.. shdnt b a prob lah. since i'm such a fast reader rite? hahaz.. ->"wah laus. go away lah." - ry, sounds familiar? hahaz<- okok, wanna try to change some features in my blog (dunno if i noe how to or not, but i shall try). "jin tian jiu dao ci wei zhi. xia ci zai jian."----------

Friday, April 04, 2003

Which Season are you?

So which letter of the alphabet matches YOUR personality, huh?

wo you hui lai le. slept damn late last nite (or i shd say early dis morning). hahaz.. went sun-tanning again just now. hehx.. lyk being as tanned as possible, but i lose my tan v easily. hope i dun peel… haiz.. anw, the 'holiday' got extended.. luckily it's only 3 days lah. i'd die if it's extended fer another wk. reallyreally wanna go back to sch.

oh. in case u'r wondering, i got those quizzes from my shifu's blog. damn cute rite? hahaz.. q brainless and silly, but still.. it's actually q fun lah. they make my blog more colourful and cool huh? hahaz.. okayokays.. mayb not cool, hm.. more entertaining? (not interesting. im sure u'r intrigued by all the stuffs in here so far. if u'r going lyk "yah rite", dun bluff.) bleahs.. hahz..

feeling q sian now.. haiz.. later hafta go face my mum liao.. wonder wad’s gonna happen. haiz.. havent fallen out with her fer q some time. cant remember when i last quarrelled with her, which is actually not bad liao.. oh well, i noe it’s more or less my fault lah, but she doesnt hafta go crazy on me rite? –shrugs-

anw, y the hell does it hafta b saturday again? haiz.. dun lyk going to my grandma’s hse on sat. cos dat’s my relatives will gather there fer dinner. cant stand it when my cousins (who r all much younger than me) r shouting and running abt the hse. i just wan to b left alone in p e a c e, yah? i’m not a ‘family-person’ full stop.

haiz.. i wanna go sch.. oh shit! arghs.. came home to do my hw and i totally 4got abt them. sian.. nvm.. o yah, can eat my cheesecake. hahaz.. made it with ry and yq. damn nice k? lols.. too bad my hse no oven, if not, i’ll keep making cookies and chessecake. bleahs.. :) okok, hafta go do hw liaos. if not i wun b able to get them all done. sighs.. will b back to update my blog as often as i can, yah? (fer those who haf goldfish memory, i'm staying at my aunt's hse. dun ask me y. it's a long story.)

OEIz! must remember to ji xu zhui zong kz? hao xi zai hou tou... (no promises, but i'll try to make my blog as great as it can get lah. duhz..) hahahahahaz

Take the Purrsonality Quiz!

anw, to say the truth.. i'm still q sian over the fact dat i'm not in rjc.. haiz.. the stupid posting results killed my dream of being a xiao bai cai.. but okay lah, nj doesnt seem as bad as i tot.. at least, i dun think it sux YET. bleahs.. anw, 03a01 ROX~!! the class cheer's really nice. sigh.. ya all shd hear it if u havent man.. anw, me thinking of joining touch rugby cos i think canoeing training will b really too xiong fer me liaos.. and i'm not really dat excited abt being a no-life freak yah? hope peiling joins me in touch rug though.. den it'll b lyk the good old days. *ahems* better make dis clear: good old days as in the days training under mr kang. NOT the days in nygh or in track.

i dunno lah.. mayb sum of u find it hard to believe dat i really dun miss ny, but it's the truth lor.. nth much fer me to liu lian back there. no really great memories or wad-haf-u. was really so happy when i cld finally get out of dat place cos dat was wad i had been thinking of fer the past 4 yrs ever since i set foot in the old sch campus (it really sucked). heys, i noe rj's campus is v old too lah, but the feeling i get when i'm in rj is so different lor.. felt so happy just being there u noe? haiz.. but too bad lah, i can nv say dat i'm a rafflesian.. [Auspicium Melioris Aevi!] o yah, rj's sch song is damn nice.. and so is pj's actually. hahaz.. nj's not dat great, but it's still alot better than ny's. haha!

abt leaving pj.. all i can say is, i haf no regrets! i mean, i do miss pple lyk jo ann, jean, su juan, xiao wen, yu qian, liying, alex, junyue, yin chong, shiting, blah.. (u all noe who u r!), but the thing is, pj's really not my kind of place.. if u get wad i mean. really feel happier in nj though i do feel out of place sumtimes (lyk during orientation when every1 else were doing massdance), but i noe it's natural fer me to feel dis way lah. just hope dat i'll find sum really gd frens, which wld definitely make my life in nj more interesting i guess.. hahaz.. ->to ry and yq: i'll really miss the both of u (i noe u'll miss me too. bleahs) since u'r all going sa and i'm in nj alone.. must remember to ask me out fer lunch, go shopping, blah hor! dun 4get..<- kkk.. dun get jealous/depressed//disappointed/ angry/blah² if u'r not mentioned in my blog yah? cos... i love all of u!! (yah rite. u wish.) hahahaz.. u think i'm telling the truth? lalala..~*

heys! haf been wanting to do dis fer q sum time (esp after having seen so many pple's blogs, it's time to haf 1 of my own, yah?), so finally got down to getting dis done though i probably wun update dis as often as i'd love to cos i'm staying at my aunt's hse lah.. -sobs- hehx.. was q surprised to c my msn nick ["it's only the heart that one sees rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."] on peiling's blog.. so qiao rite.. ->to peiling (if u get to c dis): i nv copy u hors! dat's if u got wad i mean lah..<- hahaz.. to those who'r fortunate enough to get to c dis (which, i promise, would b filled with my deepest secrets! *wink²* YAH, as if.), thank me fer giving u dis privillege alrite? hahahaz :)

heard on the news dat MOE's gonna annouce tmr morning if the so-called 'holiday' will b extended or not.. they better not extended it man.. kinda sick and tired of not going to sch.. i bought the uniform and was planning to wear it when they annouced the closure of schs.. damn suay.. haiz.. nvm lah, mayb it's better dis way too.. so many of the fun pple in 03a01 leaving.. i dunno if the results of their transfer r out yet, but.. i hope u-noe-who's (u'll noe if u noe. haha.. dunno den.... wad can i say? too bad. lols) appeal wasnt successful to go over to sci stream.. i'm mean but den again.... u cant blame me fer thinking dis way rite?! b|eahs!

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